Monday, May 24, 2010

The lyrics in this song really resonate with me so I wanted to share...

Glitter In The Air lyrics
Songwriters: Mann, Billy; Moore, Alecia;

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care?

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning, the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run
The breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

**Fave part in the song**
There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
Will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight


Thanks to: http://www.elyrics.net/read/p/pink-lyrics/glitter-in-the-air-lyrics.html for providing the lyrics

Crack-head

So I’m signed up for this aerobics class.

At times it can be really fun. I got fooled into that early on! You go in there, you get a sense of girl power, you think, “this isn’t exercise, it’s dancing and it’s darn fun!” So at the beginning, I’d say for about a month, I was really into it. I was going 2-3 times a week and then I started dropping off because of a busy schedule, inconvenient class times, and most of all laziness.

I have these cycles too. I get really motivated and do really well for a month. Then I slow down the next month and go half as much and then I go like the next two months one or two times total. And then the cycle of motivation begins again! I could never understand how the “regulars” did it. Every Tues and Thursday or Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday. I mean, I got so unmotivated as quickly as I become motivated. And what made it worse was that the teachers were so damn happy! They seemed to live for their classes. Some were so good they could bring up current event topics during a routine. They start shouting, “1 and 2 and 3 and Hey did anyone see ‘Dancing with the Stars’ last night? Boy was it good!” I think I heard one time that exercise is supposed to create/ stimulate endorphins and endorphins make you happy, but it didn’t seem to work for me. I honestly would be in the middle of a high intensity workout barely keeping up with the “top of the curve” routine; I’m ‘sparkling’ profusely; I’m in pain, thinking about the beach I’d rather be lying on; the instructor is telling us to “lift higher!” or “push more!” and I think to myself- this chick has got to be a crack-head; how can she keep going?!

So why am I bringing all of this up? Well I’m in one of my cycles again- the unmotivated month- and I’m wondering what I can do to inspire myself. I wonder what it would be like to become a crack-head (aka the aerobics instructor). I mean think about it… you get paid to be fit; paid to stay in shape. One of my biggest motivators in life is money! While it doesn’t necessarily drive me it certainly gives great directions. So can cash be an inspiration to workout? If I can move from student to teacher, then not only am I OBLIGATED to go, I’m financially bound. More importantly, it’s a goal. I’ve always worked out for the reasons of “I want to be in better shape,” or “I want to fit a smaller size” but it doesn’t keep my attention. Maybe if I try to set the goal of training to become an instructor? I certainly don’t want to get up there and embarrass myself and cycles can’t occur for a regular instructor (right?). Who knows if I’d ever really make it, and this may just be a new entry for me in my ever repeating cycle, but wouldn’t it be tremendous if it worked? Guess we’ll see….